🎶 The future’s in the air
I can feel it everywhere
Blowing with the wind of change 🎶
Have you ever felt like you were part of something that is happening right now? Something invisible, impalpable, yet there, like a presence. That is how I feel about change right now. I feel like I have been stuck in the middle of two rusty cogwheels that have only just loosened and started spinning again. Who knows. Maybe they have been spinning unbeknownst to me but it is only now that I can really sense the movement.
If we were having coffee, I would begin by saying I’m sorry. Things have been changing all around me recently and I am finding it so difficult to stay true to my blogging schedule. One question has been haunting me these past few days… How do you all manage having a full-time job AND looking after your blog? Seriously. How do you do it?
It’s not that I have a full-time job (yet) but I have been working everyday these days and I assure you, being bored out of your mind in Gatwick is probably more exhausting than being busy. I have been dealing with cancelled trains, delayed trains, all kinds of trains but on-time trains. I have watched the world go by, wondering how and why people pay us for standing there like statues everyone ignores.
If we were having coffee, I would tell you that besides having reached my Gatwick saturation point, a lot of things have been happening. Lots of ups and downs, false hopes and real hopes. Attention, attention! I have an interview on December 1st!!! Yes, an actual interview in a real architectural firm. I don’t know what to think of it. And I don’t know how excited I should allow myself to be in case it doesn’t work out. I don’t know if I’ll deliver and I don’t know how anxiously terrified I’m going to be. What I do know is oh how much I need and want this.
Next week will be tough. I am working Monday to Sunday only resting on Friday. And I have so many projects I want to address on the side that my brain is grasping at straws to find a little time here and a little time there. I have many blog posts in draft mode, painted jars waiting to be metamorphosed into LED lamps, a novel sitting quietly, whispering at me every time the shop floor gets quiet, an architectural website begging to be updated, a TEFL course with a slowly approaching expiration date, a DIY 2016 calendar waiting to be crafted for my mum’s Christmas present (thanking Gary for the idea) and time, always time, ticking away no matter what.
Stay organised. That is my current motto. I try to manage one of those activities a day in addition to work but time slips by and my eyes get heavier earlier in the evening (who would’ve thought?). In the name of change, I have also (finally) taken the leap and began re-writing my 1st chapter and the many chapters after that which all need my fullest attention. It took me a while to find the confidence again. Moving from the 1st draft to the 2nd one has been so unexpectedly difficult it took me by surprise. But I am now back on track, writing on the train, writing in the evenings, and the more I write, the less frustrating those other obligations become…
So there you have it. If we were having coffee, I would switch to a chilled bottle of Sauvignon Blanc and raise my glass to change!